I'm at a point where I don't seem happy with anything, and it's awful. College is going crappily, well to me it is. I'm just not enjoying it anymore. The stress of only having less than four months left until I finish is starting to really get to me. There are loads of things going on at the same time, and I just feel caught up in the middle of it, not moving at all.
I have no idea what I'm going to do for the summer, let alone the rest of my life, and that really scares me. I thought I had this amazing perfect plan on how my life was going to be, and now, it's all a pile of crap! Nothing I wanted to do over the last 6 months has actually happened, and now that my job is still non-existent, I don't know what to do.
I want a career, I want a good job, a nice house, the lifely perks and all that. I just don't know how it's all going to happen. I'm just at the point where I feel that I've had enough shite thrown at me over the past few years that maybe I could get a bit of slack, have something amazingly good happen to me that would benefit not just me, but a whole bunch of people; like a random film crew setting up a studio in Carlow who want to take on a heap of interns. Man, that would be perfect!
I feel bad about complaining too, because there are tons of other people out there who are entirely worse off than me.
Ugh, I just wish I knew what I was supposed to be doing with the rest of my life.
*Disclaimer: This post may contain a slight rant*
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